I’m honestly not sure if I should post this because I may be overstepping some type of line on what I should share and what I should not share. I’ve been feeling really discouraged lately about this business and this industry. I’ve read a lot of comments recently about the cost of professional photography…comments from real people, not buzz feed articles, ha. I’ve found it to be super discouraging, because I get this feeling that people think we are greedy or wow, they must be rolling in it. Here is the truth though…We are not rich. Not by a long shot. We have REALLY been struggling the last two months. And it is tough. Sometimes the battle is with our own pride, but lately, it has been a financial battle. So with all that said, we have been praying really hard for direction. It is a not secret that we struggle to keep up with our lives and our business. We both homeschool. I have four kids at home. Sarah now has three. Life is crazy and tough sometimes. And we wonder, we seriously, seriously, wonder if this business is where God really wants us. Wouldn’t we be able to better serve the Lord, and our kids, and our husbands, and our homes if we didn’t have this business? Then the next day we meet some awesome, new family or photograph some sweet, new baby, and we push those thoughts away and roll on with this business that we really do love. And this is our cycle of life. Up and down and up and down and up and down. My preacher recently preached on Psalm 5. In short, what I took from it was his summary of the passage with, “Lord, hear me. Lord, lead me. Lord, protect me.” And y’all, that is what I’ve been praying. “Lord, hear my prayers of concern. Lord, lead me where YOU want me to be. Lord, protect me from the desires of my OWN heart and make me see past them to where YOU would have me to go.” I know you are reading this and thinking, “TTF is about to shutdown…this is the announcement!” No, it isn’t, ha. With all the financial concern we’ve had lately, I’ve ran the numbers. I’ve looked at our statements. I’ve budgeted and figured out what we have to have to stay in business. I almost blogged the numbers, but I thought I would try not to overstep my boundaries, too much. But its a pretty good chunk for us to keep the doors open every month, and I’m not even talking about us getting paid. I’m just talking about breaking even…getting the bills and taxes paid and staying legit. Well, this morning, on next to the last day of the month, we were a few hundred shy of meeting that number…the breaking even number. The we aren’t getting paid, but we are gonna break even number… and to top that off, satan attacked us today. In the mail was an IRS audit verdict. Something that was filed incorrectly in 2011 came back to bite us in the rear end, and we found out that we owe some dollars to them. That came in the mail TODAY, and do you know when it is due? Monday. Yes, Monday. But guess what else happened today? I got a text this morning that due to some unforeseen circumstances, a wedding photographer had to back out of shooting a wedding and a replacement was needed at 3 p.m….today…TODAY. So, I got to go shoot a small and lovely wedding this afternoon…and that met our needs. I mean, something we were not counting on saved us from panic attacks and from the IRS. And that right there, is what I hear the Lord saying to me today. YOU, child, will NOT go hungry. YOU, child, have to put your trust in ME. I still don’t know if that means you need to trust me and know that if you shut this business down that I’m going to take care of your family, or you need to quit worrying so much and know that I’m not letting this business go under and will always meet the needs for it. BUT, what I DO know is that our good and gracious God hears our prayers, and though we are completely, COMPLETELY, undeserving of it, HE cares! And I’m so, so, so thankful for that. I just wanted to give Him the glory for today.
Now I’m tired, and I have another wedding tomorrow. I’m off to rest up for that, but I promise to answer messages and emails on Monday.